You may have noticed that I’m back. Sort of. Or you may have not even noticed I was gone. But I am back, kind of, sort of, here and there.
I’m not 100% recovered yet from this bronchitis, but I am able to start playing some catch up with things that don’t require much physical energy – IE some blogging, some reading, some homeschooling. We are so far behind I don’t even want to think about it. Merry Christmas, we may very well not be taking our typical 2 week break this year :D (it’s probably better that way anyway).
During this sickness, I’ve felt like everything was just atrophying – wasting further and further away. My energy, my appetite, my muscles, my spirit. Just getting sucked right out of me. I needed to be rest up and gas up, but as a stay at home, homeschooling mom, that doesn’t happen often!
Until my hubby stayed home on Monday and let me sleep most of the day. This seemed to really turn things around, so thanks love!
Having been sick for so long, I’ve not been going as indepth as usual with my bible study. It’s been read the verses, say a few short prayers, close and sleep some more. There were days that this was really all I could do – other days, this was all I CHOSE to do. Last night I read Psalm 51, and verses 10-12 really convicted me:
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
Cast me not away from your presence,
And take not your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation,
and uphold me with a willing spirit.
I feel these verses are my prayer, now that I am starting to feel better and somewhat restored physically. I need my spiritual relationship with God to be restored, my hunger and thirst for his word. I need him to hold me up, giving me a willing spirit, not letting myself get cast away from his presence because of the things that need to be done around the house, or the distractions once again of the internet.
I want it back, and I’m willing to pursue it. Lord, restore unto me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit so that I may pursue you once again with fervency.
A homeschooled student turned homeschooling mom of 5. Passionate about teaching my children the truth of God's word through his creation and his-tory, spending time as a family and outdoors, learning how to be more creative, and giving glory to God. Seeking to serve Christ and set a godly example for my children, to grow in love and encouragement, failing forward, learning to lean on God's grace and trust in his strength.